I am going to start this blurb by informing you that this will be my last post. My last tell tale of my experiences on a dating website. Turn on some Timberlake, and cry me a river.
Though my virtual, single, and on the market self lasted only a short amount of time amidst the inhabitants of the online dating world, I learned a lot. Somehow, investing in the knowledge of men on the West Coast really forced myself to invest in the knowledge of Hali. What I was willing to settle on, what I wasn't willing to even waste a breath on, and what truly defines me.
You see, I tend to have issues that revolve around a split personality. A prevalent side of me was hoping to start talking to someone, and instantly know that they are the love of my life (I can thank the many hours spent watching The Bachelor for that one). Yet, an equally prevalent side of myself was hoping that I would meet a man, who would set aside the instinct to throw his whole heart out on the line, and embrace me slowly, as a friend. Can't I have the best of both worlds? I know that I NEED a guy, who is man enough to slow things down. To gently invade my heart. To take steps, baby steps, to knowing what makes me tick, all the while letting me know that he sees me as a potential mate. That his pursuit of my friendship is in hopes to pursue my heart. Patience, with verbal intent.
I can't say that I walked away with a beau, but from where I stand, I can't complain. I have rooted connections to a life I am about to embrace for the first time. I have a little circle of hope. I have the foundation to mold into a brand new city. And, I have friends, who could be by my side until my soul leaves this earth.
I took a leap of faith, and gained more than I started with. For that, I am thankful.
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